On My Last Day - An Introspective Moment
On my last day I will not dream of that which I have not done for all that I have done simply is. I will not wish that I had loved more for I know that I gave all of my love. Peace will come easy for I have done nothing but live a life of peace. No tears will be wept, dreaming of what ifs and might have been, for I know that the path I followed WAS the path and that it was the path of perfection.
I will close my eyes and see eagles and bears, glaciers and otters, mountains and oceans. I will see the faces of my beautiful children and my family that loves me. I know that my choice to LIVE my life set me free and that this freedom is ever lasting. Who is to say that death is the end and not the beginning?
May I return to this place of form as a majestic eagle soaring high, looking down on the beauty that lies below or may I be a dolphin gracefully gliding through the ocean seas. Perhaps I shall simply return as the wildflower that appears in spring and makes so many smile. Form is not so everlasting so perhaps I simply go in spirit never to know form again?
Yes, on my last day I go in peace and in love for that is all I have ever known
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I posted this note sometime earlier this year, written in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by nature. It represents a state of mind for me and one that I would like to think I continually strive to uphold. Every now and again, well, I feel like I fall of the bus and need a bit of prodding, a bit of reminding about what I actually value in this life I am living, this path that I am creating. I keep these writings on my phone, and in moments of introspection often find myself rereading my written thoughts, sometimes in the strangest of places. Technology can often be burdensome -- this is one of the cases that I find it very liberating.
Over the past few weeks I have found myself continually returning to three of my key writings. One piece is called my Manifesto and is a document that represents what I want out of life. I will share this some day, but for now suffice it to say it is one of the most meaningful things I have ever written down. I refer to it often for guidance and centering. The second is a piece entitled 'My Life' and once again, it lists things that I want to achieve or things that I find of significance. These things span the gamut from peace, love nature, and other more material items. They are the specifics that I believe will come from following my Manifesto.
The last is this piece, 'On My Last Day'. I love this piece more than most because it came to me in an extreme moment of clarity. I wrote it in one full stroke, a moment of pure thought pouring from my heart and my soul directly to my pen. It is a piece that I so deeply believe in, because to me, if I can sit in my final moments and utter these words with complete knowledge that they do indeed represent my life as I have lived it, at least that part of my life that was a conscious action to me, well, then I will have lived my life to its fullest and I will move to the next most greatest form in a complete state of happiness and love.
Today, turning inwards, searching for some answers, I once again opened this note and read the words. A smile, and a tear came to my face. The words instantly grounded me as I read them, bringing calm to the chaos of my wandering mind. I share these words with everyone once again to reinforce the power that our words have on our lives. Have you taken the time to sit in peace and calm and write your own version of these three pieces? If not, perhaps the exercise can bring clarity to the every day chaos of your world.
Peace,
G-